Meraa astitva hi nahin

"Meraa astitva hi nahin"

Doobatay sooraj saa doobaa-2 jaayay,

dil meraa jaane kyun, itni jyadaa chot khaayay.
Har taraf hain failay mere sirf udaasiyon ke manjar,

gahray-2 tak dhasein hain, khaamoshiyon ke khanjar.

Hak nahin hai kyaa mujhko behtar zindagi kaa,

swaad miltaa rehtaa hai kyun, fal ki neerastaa kaa.

Meri soorat pe mat jaana, meri soorat achchhi nahin,

gamon ko peetay rehnay say, chamak ismay rehti nahin.

Poochh sakein to poochhein mujhse,

haal-e-dil kaisaa hai,

bas itnaa kahoongaa aapsay,

ret kay mehel jaisaa hai.

Jisay tootanay mein nahin lagti hai,

kshann bhar ki bhi der,

khoobsoorat khwaab jaise ban jaatay hain mitti ke dher.
Par aisi baat nahin ki insay main hoon pareshaan,

jo nahin so nahin, jo main hoon, wahi hai meri pehchaan.

Aadat jaise ho gayee hai, mujhko aise jeenay ki,

tabhi parwaah nahin hai mujhko kisikay kuchh bhi kehnay ki.
Aisi meri tasweer hai, shaayad yehi meri takdeer hai,

karm kiye honge pehle kuchh aise,tabhi aankhon mein neer hai.

Sochtaa hoon chhup jaaon, kisi tanhaayee mein kahin,

lekin moonh fer lene say kuchh milegaa bhi to nahin.
Main khush hoon apne-aap say,

main khush hoon is jahaan say,

Mujhe dukh hain nahin, mere sapnay bhi nahin,

KYUNKI Main kyaa hoon, kaisaa hoon,

"Meraa Astitva hi nahin".

:Composed on 14th of june, 2007

:By Shashank shekhar srivastava @ ShaZ, 18.

Aksar tanhaaiyon mein

"Aksar tanhaaiyon mein, gumsum baithaa sochtaa hoon"

Aksar tanhaaiyon mein, gumsum baithaa sochtaa hoon,

Him ki sheetalta mein bhi, lapton saa dhadhaktaa hoon,

Jeenaa to hanskar chaahiyay, par kyun akelaa main sisaktaa hoon,

Kehnaa to chaahoon, par kahnay mein bhi jhijhaktaa hoon,

Khol doon darwaajay dil kay, ki dukh kaa saagar beh jaaye;

Naa jaanay kyun par, khud ko Zanjeeron mein jakadta hoon.

Bahut takleefein jhelee hain dil ne, bahut jhelni baaki hain,

Khud parvardigaar bhi rooth gayaa hai, aisa main samajhta hoon.

Jin aankhon mein bhari thi kabhi ek sharaarat, kabhi thi ek saumyataa;

Un aankhon ka darpan bhi ab roj badaltaa hoon.

Bahut samjhaayaa hai is dil ko, par ye nahin maanta hai;

Kaaboo paa loon in zazbaaton pe, isliye itnaa machaltaa hoon.

Woh tiraskaar, woh vyangya; woh ghrinaa, woh haasya;

Apnay inhin kaanon se roj main suntaa hoon.

Yaad kabhi karoon inhein dobaaraa to,foot foot kar bilakhtaa hoon.

Chalte-2 kyun ruk gayaa hoon, aage koi dariyaa bhi to nahin;

Par dil mein itni khalish hai, ki usi dariyaa mein doobtaa hoon.

Naa raahein mushkil hain, naa manzil aasaan,fir kyun ye maayusi hai;

Dil ki baat naa kar paaoon bayaan, isliye shabdon mein likhtaa hoon.

Har kisi ko matlab hai har kisi say;Har kisi ko shiqvaa hai har kisi say,

Naa mujhe matlab, naa mujhe shiqvaa, isliye sabse alag vichartaa hoon.

Gam to bahut dekhe hain in nainon nay, paap bhi dekhe hain;

Naa paap dekhoon, na gam dekhoon, tabhi to band aankhon say hi chaltaa hoon.

Astitva ki ladaayee main, shithil ho gaye hain paanv;

Shaayad tabhi daudanay ki bajaaye, ghutnon par ghisatataa hoon.

Armaan to bahut thay, sapnay beshumaar thay;

Kabhi mehfilon kay thay , to kahin bahaaron kay thay;

Par dhokhaa aisaa khaayaa kismat say;

Ki khud apnay haathon say, un armaanon ki kabra khodtaa hoon.

Aksar tanhaaiyon mein, gumsum baithaa sochtaa hoon.

): Composed By Shashank shekhar srivastava, the ShaZ :(

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Son N' Father

:)"Meeting Of Lost Son and Father"(:
Once upon a time, I saw a serious crime.
An old man was stopped, and his money was robbed.
The old man was helpless, but robber was merciless.
Said that old man "Give my purse back",
Robber said "Shut-up or I'll give you a slap".
Suddenly tears rolled down the robber's face,
The old man asked "What's the case?".
Robber said "I lost my father when I was a child",
From then everyone treated me like a wild.
I got his remindings when I closely saw you,
He was very long & his eyes were blue.
The old man asked him his father's name,
He replied gently, "Mr. Oliver jame".
My name is Austin, I'm just nineteen.
Said awfully that old man "Of god!, You're my son".
Yeah I think I lost you in Washington.
The son said, "Oh yes, yes You're my dad",
You have long moustache as he had.
"Please Dad, forgive me for me for my crime",
Our destiny made us see that bad time.
"Son, now we should go to our house", said old man merrily,
And then the Son & the father lived very very happily.
-Shashank shekhar srivastava @ ShaZ.
This poem was written by me when I was 13 years old, so it may not be very interesting.

Ghar Mein Aayaa Nayaa TV

"Ghar mein aayaa nayaa TV"
Ghar mein aayaa nayaa TV,
khush ho gaye, bachhay aur bivi,
Maan boli, udghaatan main karungi,
Patni boli karkay dekho, main lad maroongi,
Pati bechaaray ki aagayi shaamat,
TV naa aayaa, aa gayi aafat,
Baje 4.30, ladka bolaa dekhoongaa main He-man,
Pitaa ji baras pade, He-man dekhnaa hai pooraa ban,
Ladka cheekhaa, phir TV hai kisliye,
Apna bijli ka bill badhay, sirf isliye,
Baj gaye 6 ladki boli, dekhoongi main disney hour,
Pitaa chillaaye, nikal jaao abhi is kamray se baahar,
Ladki ban maasoom, poochhaa main kyun nahin dekh sakti,
Pitaa ji bole, Aray nikal jaao, mat khaa bhejaa abhi,
8.30 par patni boli main dekhun ab Yes boss,
Papa ji phir bolay, patni ji ho jaao yahaan se get lost,
Tabhi saas nikal aayin, boli TV dekh sakte hain hum bhi,
Abhi bajengay 10.30, phir dekhungi "Saas bhi kabhi bahu thi",
Dekhun kaise rokatay ho mujhe dekhne se TV,
Mat bhoolo main hoon Retrd. Major general ki bivi,
Goli maar denge tumko agar TV naa mujhko dekhne diyaa,
Aray, chand rupyon ke liye kyun jalaate ho apnaa jiaa,
Kyun nahin dekhne daytay, poochh rahi hoon kabse,
Bas daantay jaa rahe ho humein tabse,
Wo bolay, bataaon iska reason, dekhnaa hai mujhe Aaj-tak,
Ab tum sab chup ho jaao, band karo apni bak-bak,
Itna sunanaa thaa, ki pooray ghar mein mach gayaa kohraam,
"Hum naa dekhein tum kaise dekhogay" kar di saki neend kharaab,
Ho gayaa saaraa ghar ast-vyast,
Jhagday mein sab ho gaye past,
Ant mein sab nay jhagday ko rokaa,
Lambi saans kheen Pitaa ji kaa moonh bolaa,
"Apna nahin hai ye TV", sab bole phir TV hai kiskaa,
Pados ke sharma ji ne order diyaa thaa, TV laayaa hoon unkaa,
Ab to pataa chal gayaa naa, TV nahin ye apnaa,
Apnay naye TV ke baaray mein mat sajaao koi sapnaa.
-Composed by Shashank shekhar srivastava (It was written in the year 2001)